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| ...did i do something wrong without knowing?
; _ ; i'm really okay if you tell me in my face rather than keepng quiet. Silence, as i know, is the worst language to throw at someone. sorry if i did, i did not know but i will apologise cause ignorance can be irritating orz. . i'm naturally paranoid so i keep thinking of all kinds of bizarre rumours floating around i can't explain, but i'll leave it. I have had enough time to realise its not to important cause in time truth always surfaces. ........ the truth is all that matters. the truth.This quote is courtesy of GYAKUTEN SAIBAN HAHAHAHAHAA erm sorry orz cant really feel too serious while i rush stupid pic and do moonwalk around my house
on a side note, in an increasing manner, i feel free. I guess things dont blast at you the moment you take action (though its like that in the movies) but bit by bit you realise you've broke away from something long long ago, and bit by bit you gain what you wish for so slowly, sometimes one does not realise it. It's slow. but it's liberating..
this year, like last year, things go against me before events but i'm more relaxed this year ACTUALLY lol. i also will experience being a broke ass for the next few days till i can go to the bank. my ATM card somehow decided to be gay, not straight, and is CROOKED and spoilt just when my cash ran out (i usually only keep a small amount of cash with me and yes my atm is my lifeline). So erm... oh shit. I have lots and lots of ringgit from CF last year though. HAHA is it a good time to change ringgit now? ; u ; i also have a full EZ link card lol~! its the last thing my atm card worked for. OTL
and OH! i am collecting money from kaya kim and gang for threadless too! GUYSSS do come early on sat! i need the cash! XDDD | comments: Leave a comment   |
| we are booth 01 see here for the floor plan- http://www.daiconnews.com/e_doujin.php
this year, 1 is our lucky number... (or at least lian) TRUE SINGAPORE SPIRITOOO
...and ohshit heise will be there. how much more ringgit will i bring orz
event schedule- http://www.daiconnews.com/schedule.php
(i wonder if mista is behind the weiss schwarz battle?)
general floor plan - http://www.daiconnews.com/images/floorplan.jpg
(there is a maid cafe? i want to go sia) actually i dont really know how to tell where the doujin booths are from the general plan so i am asking about it! But i assume this means doujin booths are along the perimeter of the area
...ok i shd have made vocaloid stuff XD feel the crowd there shd be the male power group lol. maybe i can turn my UK pic into wearing miku clothes HAHAHA (and promptly chase everyone away).
also erm i dreams i AM sponge bob square pants. how screwed up is that orz
then later i dreamt i got H1N1 and had to take mug shots. <--- | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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for the third time i think? this month? i visit my dear friend the doctor after waiting an agoning few hours through the night as what is suspected as gastric rampaged my stomach. Puking over and over sucks. Having nothing to puke but still puking sucks. Panicking parents... ahaha My hands were so cold i think they freaked orz... and at some point turn delirious with pain. IS THIS HOW GASTRIC IS LIKE!?!?!? man, so those saying they suffer regular gastric... no joke. I dont know how u survive orz. I think i even realised i am aethist in the process last night HAHA cause i was thinking 'MUST free myself of suffering!!! OH YES! i shall pray! and then *realised i truly have a aethist thinking* then proceeds to try to meditate like the shaolin monks. ahaaahahaa orz. the good news is i am very ok now. the bad news is it recurrs.... =_=; blahh and please... please dont offer me any health advices cause i had to deal with it from morning Y_Y
the biggest tragedy is probably that i have to cut down on tea... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| with MJ inside wtf! hahaha i wasnt even too concerned about him! Anyways this is how it went : ) its funny yes. but only a bit of it is MJ ba > < . t..there was also the queen of england (which is more understandable XD)
i was sort of in camera man position in a party of about 3 people (as in rpg party yes lol) and the other two characters were MJ (HAHA) and a random guy who is the unimpressive main character XD. I was (well i am) the chinese dude (or dudette, another genderless dream) LOL. anyways we were looking for the princess of some post apocalyptic world/ star wars world and the main character was to rescue her. Along the way, somehow he wanted to sing to her to win her heart but his voice is complete fail (he tried to ask me to C & C and my reaction was to shake head hahahaha). So the next scene shows the princess sitting in some dump area. Somehow, a wonderful voice fills the air and the princess is enticed but erm, in the background, MJ moon walks across the screen. WTF!
of course somehow the princess thinks MJ's voice is the main character's and she falls for him. We then complete the party and now have 4 party members and travel back to post apocalyptic England where we return the princess to the queen and expect to be knighted. Unfortunately it appears that the queen does not want the princess around because she is the true royal blood *conspiracycough* and we were all separated as prisoners orz. Thats the last i saw of all my party members (MJ included XDDD so no more MJ from here).
Somehow i became kung fu gladiator. The queen had somehow spread some lame rumour about me being the most powerful kungfu warrior who despices them engrish and killed many people so now i became some kind of gladiator that fights whoever challenges... somehow everyone assumes i wanted to fight them due to the rumour and because i had to survive i do fight them but i'm not exactly a powerful kungfu master to i was pretty tired. Of course with everyone i defeated the more they believe their queen ; u ;. in the end, i desperately went to a very very very old ex colleague who had nothing to do in my life for ages for help! Just when i saw him i woke up orz.
this is the second tiring dream i had in the same week zzz | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| just a short update!
IT'S OVERRRRR i sent the final edits to print. IT'S GOOD TO BE FREE but strangely i enjoyed it. every bit of suffering and angst. .... *recalls some bits* ok maybe not every bit but in the big picture it's fun haha orz. So please excuse me (haha NO PAIN NO GAIN!! RAWRR COMMANDO!!!!!!!)
anyways so now the to-do list of doom:
1. CHARACTER DESIGN oh fu*K so doomed i shd have sent this two weeks ago.
2. postcards for cosfest and erm, other stuff which i totally have not planned. i have 2 weeks. and a completely empty palette. Other than that i hope to do postcards that compliment my doujin haha (since i have the designs and all might as well use it right? XD
3. plan for stgcc (shit.)
4. face modelling (still miraculously not lagging behind i think)
5. redo of hand and redo female 3D model<---- this shd be number one. but its so urgent and so stressful when i think of it i just put it to the corner of my brain just like i am going to do right now. *throw*
also i am considering taking matte painting course at FZD but its a whooping 3k which is about 4 times the cost of my current course and the course is only 24 hours. Perhaps i try out to see if i can learn myself first before i consider atomic bombing my bank and my financial life into the 4th dimension by registering..........
my lecturer also said life drawing classes will end in a few weeks ;_ ; nooo. So far i think life drawing has been the most therapeutic thing that happened to me. It's really.... therapeutic. No, not because i get to see naked people hor! But i find it very cool that our body makes sense and its not a lump of moyashimons put together as i previously imagined it to be! And it's a very good diversion from the usual drawing off my mind. Though as i see how things work i start to dislike that all my life, i work off instinct rather than logic. So it's a very humbling experience. Following a life model is very very relaxing. Was told today to consider how life drawing helps in 3D... my first thought is "DESTRESS" hahaha! and it helps me imagine things better the way things do when they make sense. Not just for human body in fact, i start to look into how other things work before drawing them recently and realise its very interesting ; u ;. i still like to wear my mood on my fingertips though, not too sure how to get rid of that and become consistant orz.
oh. and yea i think i can make a new (half) year's resolution now. my resolution is to not be a bumbling klutz. =_= theres always some moment EVERYDAY i will want to face palm and head desk myself. Whether its walking into my own bed (a normal painful routine) and dropping XXX on OOO and ABCDEFG happens. it always happens. like dropping my new newsprints on the wet rainy floor today and bumping into my stupid easel which i think happened way too many times. ruahurgughiuahwdwohoijheofahowahhawohaodwhoadwhoadw please murphy... please don't haunt me anymore.... | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
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hey guyss i sent my doujin to print but its not overrr XD still editting while the printer works on it. i'm less stressed now, but i wish i could be done faster and move on to postcards and focus a lot more on classes but i'm glad! : ). And thanks so much, lian > < for letting me buy more time... i hope your friend still managed to have a good time in Singapore > <<< so sorry for pang sehing you!!! And thanks for the guest artists... ; _ ;;; i really didnt expecteveryone to make it on time >_< so thanksss and those still working on it thanks for still trying i hope! ahhh *rolls on floor asdfasdfidunnohowtosaythislalalala*
so before i sleep i do sth fail... and give you a preview of a preview orz. Cause i am too sleepy to pick proper pics and save for preview..here is preview of preview... (?!?!!) Do watch out for more Y U YY
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| | DUDEEEDSS MJUST YOU BE SICK TODAY MUST YOU GO CLEANING AROUND TODAYI AM SO STRESSED SO STRESSS PLEASE DONT MIND ME PLEASE GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAYYYYYYY and please dont ask me anything on msn please... please just leave me alone. | | |
| posting 2 quick pictures before i go off to class, one is a cover preview for my doujin hahhahahahaa ;;; ;; ; ;; ;; if i crop out one part, it looks so different aaahahaahahaha ahahahaha *died*
( 2 images under this cut )yes. it's uke. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| my mood now is on an incredible low. i hate family drama that is not behind a television screen. erm, you know what i think? YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK? GO FUCK YOURSELVES
and that's not going to stop me posting about my dream. WHICH IS ABOUT ME! Iwas Sousuke from full matal panic and my classmates were screaming on a roller coaster but i was laughing (??!!!? ) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| hahahaha this was supposed to be for the atogaki, but i promptly discarded it. However even after i decided it shall be unwanted and thrown away, i contuned and made it gay. : ) Sebastian, i'm sorry but not really XDDD
about 15-20 minutes wasted on this act of boliaoness while i was doing the cover XD
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(sorry for the crudeness XD) c..carpet has been doing this a lot lately orz. She'd sleep on her back and start eating the stuff in her cheeks, oblivious to her surroundings as i snap pron pictures of her. RAGHHH LAZY!!!
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| urgh.
today is a... ______ day.
i can't tell at all orz. It was horrible at a point! then it became a pretty good day. Then there were the coincidences. @ u @ then it went raving mad. i guess i can say for sure it's a hungry day. After a decent breakfast of egg sandwiches, i only had 1 milo LOL. and its cause i bought it before class and forgot all about it till i went home. shall be going to give my stomach sth to churn later before i sleep yes. i need to get used to a better eating schedule. How long has it been since 12 pm is my lunch time? i have no idea. even at work my lunch happens ard 2 but i sometimes drag till 5? 6? or never... in uni and poly my lunch were lateee... laaaate. I dont remember a normal eating schedule at all. urgh... but this is too crazy.
ah. sleep yes, sleep. today i drew ouppai... i keep thinking, i ought to have done this long ago (learn 3D, not draw ouppai). Would have saved me ages of pain and horror trying to draw comics without knowing much about well... how to draw for instance.
side note my brother seems to be pretty tolerant when i start rushing around the house in one of my panic modes, kicking him off the computer etc.... XD | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| HEYY hahaha UK's boss made it on failblog
and no.. no i am not reading up on their bosses to fuel my hetalia fangirlism...
no.. not at all..
no.. not the newspaper either... no... *denial*
but on a sidenote, i think he might have just been blur and followed what obama was doing and realised its kinda silly to be shaking hands with the guy cause that's his own office? XDDDD | | comments: Leave a comment |
| thanks to laziness to effing buy an earring. my left second ear hole is half closed. haiz so fail. hopefully somehow i can reopen it in the next few days. hopefully.... painlessly...
watched Angels and Demons. As a movie, it was a pretty okay watch i feel, but i've not read the book, so perhaps my expectations are different from one who has. I expected more elements of puzzle solving though! And ah..anyway, taking in the details the (fake) vatican city and beautiful beautiful italy made it quite enjoyable to watch XD.
I... also ate the worst cha soba ever today. : ( worst. ever. SO BAD it deserves mention here. So far, i dare say i have not tasted any soba that i like much in singapore stores. I like the ones i cook the most *cough* BHB *cough* Kikoman soba shoyu is really yummy!
on a random side i remembered theres a topic that always sth i wanna blog about but keep forgetting and it's little carpet. < ). I'm sorry, i fail as a human and totally let those little beady eyes control my mind, and order me to the fridge and present chocolate to her. Carpet does this strange hamster things like sleep on her back, sleep on her back in her bathing sand- her little feet in curled against her underside * n*. Have to fight urge to poke. She'd sleep half hanging out of her sand bath as well or sprawled against the walls of her container like a furry caterpillar. She's so cute. hamsters are so cute and random!!!!
recent events.. ha ha.. hmm usually i like to wait for a decision that comes clearly to my mind. But this thing, i dont feel the decision... till now not one bit of the drama makes sense to me lol! So i think part of my brain is waiting for someone to pop out and tell me "HAHA~~~ this is just a joke!!!!". urghhghgh.
sometimes i feel everyone's speaking in a different language though we use the same kind of words. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| i wrote a long entry summing up my updates but it is gone.... cause i pressed... something...
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feeling a bit orz now... combined crazy stomach with some other things. so i'll just update some stuff before more and more updates pile up in my mine!
- hey guysssssss BE MY FACEBOOK FRIENDDD play restaurant cityyyy : D
i need more ingredients... moarrrr XD
- i am trying to dig all loopholes and include a sex scene in my doujin. WHAT! it's essential ok! sex scene is essentiallll *hugs sex scene*. actually i might see how to imply it....but never show it... BWAHAHA. that way anyone comes for my neck about promoting gay or whatever... where got... i only did a story of two friends. friends... frieeeendddssss *stabs self in head*
- wai, i have 2 doujins and 1 illustration to finish and i am procrastinating.. go me. currently the selling part now is a blur. But i'll just push on with the doujins and merchandise and cross the bridges when i come to it. oddly i feel a bit more determined now.
- my classes have started! : D so far, 3D has been very fun!!!!! Well its just the basics... and i imagined the worst so haha. i know it gets blood vomitted (or so i keep hearing and hearing) so i... i will not stop cracing myself! snyways, so far we did simple things. A cup, a simple button/eye, "dinosaur" (the basic one lol), random thingers and currently the homework is to model a frog. : D I feel so socially inept though Y u Y haiz.... curse this old brain... can't react fast anymore. coupled with really unhealthy sleeping time and being not used to having dinner before 7 so i work on empty stomach in class, i really am a bumbling alien.
- life drawing class was erm.. erm... unexpected. I am so sorry to admit i am such i noob i thought i would draw cubes or practice drawing lines for the first lesson. I mean... its the first time i am touching conte- something i only know existed like.... a week ago. *facepalm*. if i remember correctly, shd be the first time i use anything of that nature.... dont remember using charcoal or graphite before! Anyways. i kept thinking i was going to be drawing lines for practice all the way until i took my paper and pined it on the easel in class, happened to look out and saw a muscular man standing butt naked in the middle of the room. fortunately too busy panicking over what i am supposed to draw now lol. Lines to human mindset is.... a long distance XD;. however, it's really fun. We did 1 minute gesture drawings etc. I died cause i was wearing a very warm long sleeves and didnt tie my hair... pls be remembering life drawing is... not sitting on wooden chairs with classical music in the bg and drawing a basket of fruits next time.
looking at my lineart now, haha it looks full of rage.
must remind self, wear cooler clothes for moving ard, tie hair and bring dark coloured black and wear darker clothes for life drawing : ) *eyes fingerprints on white bag u u|||* | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
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| i spent the entire weekend sketching my kuroshitsuji doujin! Pretty glad that i'm done : ) from here on things would be less unpredictable! Meanwhile, i can start on the sketch of my APH doujin too XD.
realised that the things i am exposed to change my mindset a lot. One moment i am inspired to do a romantic doujin, the next moment, the desire to scrap everything and do an emo story overtakes me and i have to fight it like crazy. This round, i'm doing fanservice/romance/crack story for kuroshitsuji... but i'm so inspired to do an emo one as well. Cause... the story is so emo ahaha
...i realised i love drawing emo stories a lot more than crack. So from here on, i'll be loading my mp3 player with emo music and embarking on the aph doujin.
tomorrow i'll be starting 3D modelling classes too! W..wish me luck lol. I only fiddled around with 3d studio max a little and created basic shapes and stuff so far. Hopefully i won't lag behind in class too much ;_;;; | | comments: Leave a comment |
| GYAKUTEN KENJI US-ver
ANNOUNCED TO BE OUT IN WINTER THIS YEAR!!!!
YEAH!!! YESSSS YOOOHOOOOO let's dannnnceeeeeee | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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